Supernatural 6.20
May. 8th, 2011 03:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maychorianSo, yeah, I haven't been talking about Supernatural lately. I've been letting a few episodes pile up on my hard drive and watching them all at once. The first half of this season was just... Too much for me. Too dull, too gross and dark with all the monster torture and the massive disconnection of everybody from everybody. The show had lost its charm, fallen from my favor. I actually...I actually kind of DREADED watching the next one, sometimes. D:
But these last few episodes have been so good, they brought it back for me. I care about all of them again. I want them to succeed, to reconnect, to be the characters we know and love again. And this last ep, especially, really brought it home for me. THEY ARE THE FAMILY THEY NEED AND RIGHT NOW THEY'RE A LITTLE BROKEN AND IT'S SAD.
CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. ::weeps::
Okay, obviously the theology annoys me a little, as a Christian who has specific beliefs and doesn't appreciate being told things about her religion by a television show that can't even figure out the right pronunciation for Samhain. However, I've accepted that this is not my God and not my heaven, so we'll let that go. It's still a cool fictional universe and I do love all the characters dearly despite their crapsack universe.
Castiel has made some BAD decisions. Such BAD ones. I know a lot of fans will not find him sympathetic at all after this, if they ever did. I'm not even gonna try to venture out there beyond my little circle of Cas-lovers, cuz I know it's gonna be brutal. But for me, it all makes SO MUCH SENSE.
What did Dean call him? A baby in a trench coat? Yeah. Here's this guy who's been doing nothing but follow orders for tens of thousands of years, or millions of years, or whatever. Then he breaks away, follows someone else's orders: Dean's. And now there's no one to give him orders at all anymore. He's a million years old but he's a child, a newborn, a new soul in a very strange world trying to learn a bit about how to give and take. (Since he came here, felt the joy and the fear, finding himself making every possible mistake.) So yeah, he's making mistakes all over the place. ALL OVER THE PLACE.
But I find it so, so easy to forgive him. It's maybe a little ridiculous how easily I can forgive Castiel for just about everything. Even though I still find the monster torture really, really horrifically disturbing, and hate to my marrow that Castiel stands by and lets it happen and doesn't at least put the poor things out of their misery. That, for me, is the worst thing he's been doing, never mind agreeing to SPLIT THE SOULS IN PURGATORY with Crowley, which means that half of 'em are going to hell (to stand in line for eternity, hahahahaha). I just don't like torture, okay? Unless it's in a fanfic and it's mostly offscreen and the character is guaranteed thousands of words of comforting and healing and bro-cuddling at the end, because that's what I like because I'm a sicko. The torture scenes this season have just been too much for me.
But yeah. I have no problem at all forgiving Castiel. I don't think Dean will have much problem with it either, eventually, once this is over, because on a deep heart level, Dean GETS Castiel. And didn't we just see that in living color at the end of this episode. And now I want to cry again. These poor babies.
Also, everything dotfic says.
Hmm, that wasn't really a very coherent or interesting reaction, but that's what I wanted to say about this ep. So there it is.
I'm working on a new fanmix for Castiel, since I've made one for him every season so far. I have quite a few ideas now for what other songs to look for. I may make a post asking for someone to make art for me soon.
I love you all, and yeah, I'm not done with this show yet. I thought maybe I was, I was really close to giving up, but I'm not.
But these last few episodes have been so good, they brought it back for me. I care about all of them again. I want them to succeed, to reconnect, to be the characters we know and love again. And this last ep, especially, really brought it home for me. THEY ARE THE FAMILY THEY NEED AND RIGHT NOW THEY'RE A LITTLE BROKEN AND IT'S SAD.
CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. ::weeps::
Okay, obviously the theology annoys me a little, as a Christian who has specific beliefs and doesn't appreciate being told things about her religion by a television show that can't even figure out the right pronunciation for Samhain. However, I've accepted that this is not my God and not my heaven, so we'll let that go. It's still a cool fictional universe and I do love all the characters dearly despite their crapsack universe.
Castiel has made some BAD decisions. Such BAD ones. I know a lot of fans will not find him sympathetic at all after this, if they ever did. I'm not even gonna try to venture out there beyond my little circle of Cas-lovers, cuz I know it's gonna be brutal. But for me, it all makes SO MUCH SENSE.
What did Dean call him? A baby in a trench coat? Yeah. Here's this guy who's been doing nothing but follow orders for tens of thousands of years, or millions of years, or whatever. Then he breaks away, follows someone else's orders: Dean's. And now there's no one to give him orders at all anymore. He's a million years old but he's a child, a newborn, a new soul in a very strange world trying to learn a bit about how to give and take. (Since he came here, felt the joy and the fear, finding himself making every possible mistake.) So yeah, he's making mistakes all over the place. ALL OVER THE PLACE.
But I find it so, so easy to forgive him. It's maybe a little ridiculous how easily I can forgive Castiel for just about everything. Even though I still find the monster torture really, really horrifically disturbing, and hate to my marrow that Castiel stands by and lets it happen and doesn't at least put the poor things out of their misery. That, for me, is the worst thing he's been doing, never mind agreeing to SPLIT THE SOULS IN PURGATORY with Crowley, which means that half of 'em are going to hell (to stand in line for eternity, hahahahaha). I just don't like torture, okay? Unless it's in a fanfic and it's mostly offscreen and the character is guaranteed thousands of words of comforting and healing and bro-cuddling at the end, because that's what I like because I'm a sicko. The torture scenes this season have just been too much for me.
But yeah. I have no problem at all forgiving Castiel. I don't think Dean will have much problem with it either, eventually, once this is over, because on a deep heart level, Dean GETS Castiel. And didn't we just see that in living color at the end of this episode. And now I want to cry again. These poor babies.
Also, everything dotfic says.
Hmm, that wasn't really a very coherent or interesting reaction, but that's what I wanted to say about this ep. So there it is.
I'm working on a new fanmix for Castiel, since I've made one for him every season so far. I have quite a few ideas now for what other songs to look for. I may make a post asking for someone to make art for me soon.
I love you all, and yeah, I'm not done with this show yet. I thought maybe I was, I was really close to giving up, but I'm not.
